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lack of sleep has made me irritable, and lowered my tolerance level. Shagged out from my single tank battle course (2 days no sleep + tekan), little events in the day piss me off worse than ever before. have to control, but hell, control is a lot more tougher than I thought it would be. Anyway, she's safe and sound in America, and that quells most of my worries for now. Just hope she gets settled in fast and good. See? I can't even bother to write more. lol dreamt at 8/25/2007 08:15:00 PM, 0 comments Funny how some things in life makes you contemplate things differently, and life sure is weird, moving quickly at times, and excruciatingly slow at others. Well, just finished the last copy of Harry Potter, that is Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows for those of you who don't know, and it's weird that after finishing it, I look back to the time when I first picked up a Harry Potter book and started reading it, which must have been years ago. Just like Harry, my life has moved on for a few years, but as his adventure draws to an end, mine continues as I move on. Reading the Deathly Hallows did awaken some of my thoughts about what should I do in the later part of my life, what choices should I make etc. Also it makes me think back about things that I should have, or should not have done. Truly a thought provoking book, considering that such a complicated plot has such a neat ending, everything ending well, the circle being complete. How I wish such scenarios existed in real life too, then all would be much better, just like a dream... Enough of dreams and back to reality. I'm now in TOCC (Tank Officer Cadet Course), meaning I train at Sungei Gedong Armour camp. Life so far as been tough, just as those who have passed through armour say, and I've almost reached my breaking point. They say they fail those who cannot make the grade, and the challenges I've faced so far proved much more of a challenge than I thought they were, and if things were to get any tougher, I doubt I would be able to pull through. Of course, its a make or break thing, if I do get to commission, all would be well, but should I fail... well let's just say that the thing I'm worrying about is being out of course and having "Attitude problem" written on my track record for life. Bleh, life sucks when you're thrown into something that you can't back out of, knowing that you'll just put an end to everything if you do so. She's leaving soon, and it seems that I have nothing to say to her, while in actual fact I wish I could spend an entire lifetime talking to her. I just want to talk to her about the simple things in life, however mundane it may seem. It's just that in this little time I have left with her, what I want to say, or choose to say would have to be really important, and to me, either everything seems important or insignificant. Can't things be simpler in life? Sigh~ dreamt at 8/19/2007 08:23:00 PM, 0 comments |
Age: 2 0 School: JSPS/RI/RJC/Armour/NTU Location: Singapore
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