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The past week has been pretty bad for us tankies again... Integrity problems are on the rise (so they say) and we have lack of effort in training. Sometimes, it makes me wonder whether punishing the whole course of 18 people due to one person's mistake will truly make us learn better. It's not like we don't remind each other, but is it not true that certain things are still up to oneself to ensure that it is done well? If one person doesn't wear his undergarments, are we expected to remind him to do so too? To remind him to eat? To sleep? To fucking breathe? Or do you want us to teach him how to contract and relax his diaphragms? Shit, everyone is freaking 19 years old, and we don't have to be punished for every single little mistake everyone else makes once in a while. Giving my 100% for training isn't yielding anything for me. So what if I bring out the bloody fire extinguisher during servicing? One asshole that forgets that, we all die. Redcon 1 for gunnery? What does it mean? In armour, no one recognises whatever the fuck you do, no matter how well you do it. Only when you fuck up, will everyone point fingers at you and say "It's those fuckd up cadets again". Armour, the force, the family, the future? Force, yeah, plenty of abusive force, family? Sure as hell doesnt feel like one, and I'm pretty damn sure I don't see any future. At least some good news comes from the States, and bing able to stay in touch brings me back to happy times I had in the past, which seems so far away. Right now, only such happy memories can save my mind from the irreversible damage anger may do to my mind. I will go crazy. dreamt at 9/01/2007 04:10:00 PM, 0 comments |
Age: 2 0 School: JSPS/RI/RJC/Armour/NTU Location: Singapore
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