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It's been a very long time since I last updated my blog. A little update on my life so far... After BMT I got into OCS, and life was tough because of my posting into Delta wing, a so called scholar wing. Training programmes were packed to the max to make time for those people who had to book out to go for scholarship interviews, and life at that time really seemed unfair because I was part of the minority who merely scored good results and didn't apply for scholarships, ended up taking the brunt of the tough training and never gaining any benefits from it. Service term was tough, but as it neared the end, the tempo died downed a little. Everyone was looking forward to the postings fo pro term, many of us hoping to get into signals. I was the same as almost everyone else, but what did I get? Armour. Looks like life is gonna get tougher and tougher. Enough about army. Many people say that Vi-Zanne and I are pretty brave to start a relationship just as I got enlisted. Now that I think of it, it's pretty true I guess. But all good things seem to end really quick, and now's the time for her to go to the States to further her studies. Time and time again I tell myself that it's not that tough to let her go, but hell, it's way harder than you can ever imagine. Tonight I'm flying off to Brunei already for my SOCJOT, and she's going back to Malaysia to prepare her stuff to fly off. In the past few days of my short leave however, we managed to spend a great time in Cameron highlands, going to the farms, just relaxing, just the two of us and the scenery and the sunrise and everything else that is just so beautiful. Life has its great moments too, but short, too short. I'll have to pull through the next 21 weeks, for myself, for her, for my family. It's just another 1.5 years of army. After that I can finally live my life proper as a civilian. No more broken relationships, no more a disappointed family, no more a disappointed her. I feel so angry at all the obstacles life has thrown at me so far, without any warning at all. And now only a quarter into my journey I still have no hint of when these will ever end. Perhaps my section instructor was right that 'This will never end'. Or perhaps he's wrong, and this will all end, some way or another, painful, or painless. I feel down. dreamt at 7/01/2007 05:13:00 PM, 0 comments |
Age: 2 0 School: JSPS/RI/RJC/Armour/NTU Location: Singapore
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