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Do you ever get confused? I do... I think I understand how junkies feel. Taking it and getting the high.... then suddenly disappearing, leaving u having with the worst withdrawal symptoms you can ever imagine. After what feels like eternity, you finally get back to your normal life, thinking that everything is over, telling yourself to move on. THEN, it pops out on the market again... and as the dealer pushes the temptation towards you, will you take it? Don't. dreamt at 7/26/2008 10:31:00 PM, 0 comments 难以忘记初次见你 一双迷人的眼睛 在我脑海里 你的身影挥散不去... 握你的双手感觉你的温柔 真的有点透不过气 你的天真我想珍惜 看到你受委屈我会伤心 只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近 怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气 只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁 想念只让自己苦了自己 爱上你是我情非得已 难以忘记初次见你 一双迷人的眼睛 在我脑海里你的身影挥散不去 握你的双手感觉你的温柔 真的有点透不过气 你的天真我想珍惜 看到你受委屈我会伤心 只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近 怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气 只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁 想念只让自己苦了自己 爱上你是我情非得已 dreamt at 7/19/2008 07:32:00 PM, 0 comments Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Envy, Wrath, Sloth, Pride It seems that pride is said to be the most dangerous and the one which all other sins arise form. Pride is the desire to look better and to be better than other people, and in disregarding everything else, pride can lead one's drowning in the other six deadly sins. My my... that's interesting. I never knew pride was one of the deadly sins. Maybe I'm just not well read enough, discovering this lately only from reading FullMetal Alchemist. Just like what is said in history, Pride's character in FullMetal Alchemist is the first Homunculus, the oldest, and of course one of the most dangerous... Take pride in your work, but have humility when criticised. Desire to be better than others, but never to the expense of those around you. Have great figures as your inspiration, but not as objects of envy. Understand that anger begets anger, and the vicious cycle will be hard to break out of. Learn to be content and happiness is just a matter of opening those doors in your heart. They will always exist with us. Because that is what makes us human. Merely human. Luxuria, Gula, Avaritia, Invidia, Ira, Acedia, Superbia dreamt at 7/10/2008 10:24:00 PM, 0 comments Bespectacled me.. Work, work, work. Work in the office, work in the vehicle shed, work wherever I go. It isn't a bad feeling when you get to do work, feels pretty good to be exhausted while doing work, rather than to wait. Work. Takes your mind off things. Work. Sharpens your mind and keeps those creative juices flowing. Ever need to numb yourself, work. 6 more months till I ord. Life has been passing by pretty quickly. Work. It must be the work. Being an officer exposes you to different challenges I guess. No doubt I wasn't of the exact calibre required to be an excellent officer, I did learn a lot of things. All through doing work. Through that, many of life's lessons just happens and you sort of absorb the shit that comes your way. Oh yes, you can gain a lot... But I've also lost a lot. Perhaps it's not just due to work. But when stress levels are high, it just makes it harder for you to maintain certain things at a certain level. We all have to learn, and I didn't learn fast enough. Have to change... Maybe I'll see the world clearer through glasses, oh bespectacled me. dreamt at 7/08/2008 09:22:00 PM, 0 comments 想い出を摘んできましょ 花を摘んできましょ Let's pick memories; let's pick flowers 胸の闇に一輪差し飾るの I raise a single flower to the darkness in my chest and decorate it いつだって行き止まりで 決して逃げられない At a dead end all the time, I can never escape 空の鳥へ哀しみのせ飛ばすの I'll let my sorrow ride on the birds in the sky and fly ここは仮縫い // This place is the basting 私を縛る永遠 // The eternity that binds me 行きも帰りも過ぎてゆくは夢 // Whose going and returning passes by me is a dream 日が暮れて影を隠す 一人泣きたくなる The sun sets and hides the shadows; alone, I feel like crying 黒く滲む瞳の中怖くて The centers of my eyes that stain black grow afraid ここは仮縫い // This place is the basting 世界を編んだ永遠 // The eternity that knitted the world 行きも帰りもついてくるは風 // Whose going and returning follows is the wind 少しだけ寄り道して泣いた…… I strayed away for a moment and wept... ここは仮縫い // This place is the basting 私を縛る永遠 // The eternity that binds me 行きも帰りも過ぎてゆくは夢...// Whose going and returning passes by me is a dream... 0 comments If I were to die, I just want to tell my parents that I love them, and of course still that very very special person. No, I'm not going to attempt some high risk activity, ok maybe I'm just used to high risk training in the army, but then, it's not like I'm gonna die any moment. I just want to put it somewhere so that if, IF it really happens, at least there won't be any regrets. Actually, come to think of it, I don't have much regret in my life should it end soon. Weird... People go on and on about so many things they want to do, so many things they want to achieve. For me, I've lived and loved before, life was good to me, sometimes a little mean but it's all good fun. I have been healthy, not particularly fit, but I only have myself to blame for that so... haha.. I have great parents, with my mom only 20 years older than me, she acts like a sister at times, so I have no lack of siblings either. Maybe I'm not the best son in the world, or the best behaved kid, but I guess I've been alright with the great upbringing they have given me. Friends, not abundant, but no lack of. I'm not that much of an extrovert, only warming up to people who are close to me. Love, maybe, maybe not, just a brief glimpse that ended all too soon. Education, from a neighborhood school to premier institution, enlisted, from recruit to officer. Not sterling, but okay. Not a perfect high flier, but I guess I'm still not sinking. Going to NTU, anticipating what I can do in the future, and all the great doors that will open up. Life is good, all 20 years of it. If you just strive too much, time will pass you by too quickly. Perhaps you can have a choice about what you create in those short years. Whether it'll stay longer, to echo our name throughout for another hundred years, or mere accomplishments that crumble away along with those long dead bones of yours... If I have to have one regret, I just wish that glimpse of love would last forever, because it was good enough to last more than a lifetime dreamt at 7/03/2008 05:19:00 PM, 0 comments |
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